Exam is over...school (for now) is over! But what ever will I do now? 3½ years of my relatively short life has come to an end. I have been waiting for this forever it feels, but how come I feel so empty now....this is the real surprise. Everyone I know has congratulated me and said oh it must be so wonderfull to be done with this, to have the degree and to able to get my life back.....and I really thought that I would have agreed with them..but somehow it hasn't dawned on me yet, I think. I am not nearly as uplifted and happy as I figured I would be.
As this truly is a surprise to me, I am slightly unsure what to do....I never get restless...and right now I am restless...strange!
Perhaps I just need a good night sleep and try to except that I did it. That I took this degree - 3½ years of going to school after work, doing homework, handing in papers, taking exams - maybe I should try to congratulat myself - seems so easy for other people to do it, so maybe it is time that I patted myself on the back, said well done girl and then went on with my life.
~Flisbeth
fredag den 25. januar 2008
tirsdag den 22. januar 2008
What I wouldn't give to be able to time travle right about now!
I am focusing on this for all the wrong reasons...I have an exam tomorrow and I am feeling fine about it...fine as in Freaked out Insecure Neurotic and Emotional! Nothing more nothing less. I do this eveytime...wish so hard that I could just jump in time, to AFTER the exam.
I am SO bad with the waiting, I get all these horror senarios in my head instead of focusing on the presentation I have to prepare and what I will say. I know I will do what I always do...make it up as I go along. Exams for me are always an out-of-body experience..I almost never know what I am saying in there..but I somehow always manages to pull through somehow! But I get myself in a right state before and I get ever so nervouse. I just want it to be over with..NOW!
But instead of being smart about it and doing all the work in due time, I always leave it to the last minute, as I then minimise the amount off stress I end up putting on myself, to only a day or so instead of more! This may very well only make sense to me, but so be it.
Right now for instance, I should be working on the PowerPoint presentation, but am instead writing this blog and watching What Not to Wear with Trinny & Susannah. Perhaps I should get a hold of them for next time and make them yell at me, to not put things off?! I know they deal mostly with making your bumb look smaller, but I think maybe I would listen to them no matter what they said! Or maybe I have now just lost the plot and am now rambeling on...anything to NOT get back to what I really should be doing.
And I know that I will keep watching the telly and will most likely be finished very late tonight.
Will I ever learn, should I, can I? I mean maybe this is just who I am, and there are bigger issues than this about me, that I should work on.
And perhaps there are much more important issues in the world to be dealt with, than my wierd way of dealing with an oral exam. I shall try and be less wraped up in my own tiny problems...I mean if this is the worst I can come up with, I should say that my life is really very good.
It is just right now...this is all that will fit in my head....sad but true!
I think perhaps I will go back to working on the presentation now...or if I´m to be honest, I will most definitely end up watching The Daily Show instead...but I mean 25min in the company of Jon Stewart, THAT is worth putting off any studying for :)
~Flisbeth - still feeling fine (see top for explanation!)
I am SO bad with the waiting, I get all these horror senarios in my head instead of focusing on the presentation I have to prepare and what I will say. I know I will do what I always do...make it up as I go along. Exams for me are always an out-of-body experience..I almost never know what I am saying in there..but I somehow always manages to pull through somehow! But I get myself in a right state before and I get ever so nervouse. I just want it to be over with..NOW!
But instead of being smart about it and doing all the work in due time, I always leave it to the last minute, as I then minimise the amount off stress I end up putting on myself, to only a day or so instead of more! This may very well only make sense to me, but so be it.
Right now for instance, I should be working on the PowerPoint presentation, but am instead writing this blog and watching What Not to Wear with Trinny & Susannah. Perhaps I should get a hold of them for next time and make them yell at me, to not put things off?! I know they deal mostly with making your bumb look smaller, but I think maybe I would listen to them no matter what they said! Or maybe I have now just lost the plot and am now rambeling on...anything to NOT get back to what I really should be doing.
And I know that I will keep watching the telly and will most likely be finished very late tonight.
Will I ever learn, should I, can I? I mean maybe this is just who I am, and there are bigger issues than this about me, that I should work on.
And perhaps there are much more important issues in the world to be dealt with, than my wierd way of dealing with an oral exam. I shall try and be less wraped up in my own tiny problems...I mean if this is the worst I can come up with, I should say that my life is really very good.
It is just right now...this is all that will fit in my head....sad but true!
I think perhaps I will go back to working on the presentation now...or if I´m to be honest, I will most definitely end up watching The Daily Show instead...but I mean 25min in the company of Jon Stewart, THAT is worth putting off any studying for :)
~Flisbeth - still feeling fine (see top for explanation!)
torsdag den 15. november 2007
Really not my week!
Someone stole my bike today....now see that just pisses my off! That was MY bike...what gives some people the idea that they can just take what ever they like and not care that, that something was someone elses property!
And all the hassel I get out of this...I have to take the bus everywhere (and my view on public transportation needs its very own blog, so I won't even go there), file a police report, contact my insurance company, buy a new bike!!! All this just because some idiot doesn't know the difference between whats mine and not his/hers!
And to be honest I don't appreciate having a bike thief remind me of all the stuff I have put off, but should have done - like get the papers on the bike from my friends boyfriend who I bought it through as I need it to fill out the policereport online, like the fact that I should have gotten my old bike fixed so that I would have that now instead of having to take it to bike repair shop tomorrow and wait for it to get fixed!
So thanks bicycle thief for not only stealing my bike, but I also reminding me of my bad habbit of putting stuff off that I really should have dealt with already!
This just really is not my week!
Waaaay to busy at work, the election here in Denmark did NOT go the way I wanted/had hoped for and the outcome just depresses my to no end. The right wing party keeps getting more and more votes with each election and that scares me. What people am I sharing a country with? I use to be really proud to say that I was from Denmark . I mean really proud...not in a smug kind of way, just proud in the purest form...now..yeah well not so much! Call me a socialist, call me what ever, doesn't matter to me...what matters is how we treat the people around us. I belive we need to help the less fortunate and that welfare should be at the top of everyones list of priorities...the amount of taxes we pay in this country are high, but I would gladly pay more if it meant that the waitinglist for hospitals would get shorter, that schools and other instutions like it could get renovated and that we would again give the proper aid to people around the world who needs it. I will get down of my soap-box now as this topic is no good for my bloodpresure, but I am just saddend that people in my country are greedy, selfcentered and racist!
And to top of my week I now have cramps.....like I said...this really is not my week!
~Flisbeth
And all the hassel I get out of this...I have to take the bus everywhere (and my view on public transportation needs its very own blog, so I won't even go there), file a police report, contact my insurance company, buy a new bike!!! All this just because some idiot doesn't know the difference between whats mine and not his/hers!
And to be honest I don't appreciate having a bike thief remind me of all the stuff I have put off, but should have done - like get the papers on the bike from my friends boyfriend who I bought it through as I need it to fill out the policereport online, like the fact that I should have gotten my old bike fixed so that I would have that now instead of having to take it to bike repair shop tomorrow and wait for it to get fixed!
So thanks bicycle thief for not only stealing my bike, but I also reminding me of my bad habbit of putting stuff off that I really should have dealt with already!
This just really is not my week!
Waaaay to busy at work, the election here in Denmark did NOT go the way I wanted/had hoped for and the outcome just depresses my to no end. The right wing party keeps getting more and more votes with each election and that scares me. What people am I sharing a country with? I use to be really proud to say that I was from Denmark . I mean really proud...not in a smug kind of way, just proud in the purest form...now..yeah well not so much! Call me a socialist, call me what ever, doesn't matter to me...what matters is how we treat the people around us. I belive we need to help the less fortunate and that welfare should be at the top of everyones list of priorities...the amount of taxes we pay in this country are high, but I would gladly pay more if it meant that the waitinglist for hospitals would get shorter, that schools and other instutions like it could get renovated and that we would again give the proper aid to people around the world who needs it. I will get down of my soap-box now as this topic is no good for my bloodpresure, but I am just saddend that people in my country are greedy, selfcentered and racist!
And to top of my week I now have cramps.....like I said...this really is not my week!
~Flisbeth
lørdag den 10. november 2007
To blog or not to blog..
that is the question I guess....what an odd sence I have, thinking that someone, anyone could read what I write. Should I write with that in mind, is that why I am writing in the first place? I don't honestly know...I have read a few blogs and for a long time thought to myself what would I write if I had my own! Could it possibly be used to unload stuff that I have inside, stuff that bothers me, gives me joy, makes me sad or angry....sometimes I feel I need a place like this not to go crazy...it is funny how the little things can seem so big inside your head, sometimes to big. So what if I could by any chance could vent all of that in a blog and end up at better person for it?
Hell, I am no one special, I am just me, trying my best to navigate throught this, my so-called life and this world to the best of my ability....now with a blog!
~Flisbeth
Hell, I am no one special, I am just me, trying my best to navigate throught this, my so-called life and this world to the best of my ability....now with a blog!
~Flisbeth
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