What I wouldn't give to be able to time travle right about now!

I am focusing on this for all the wrong reasons...I have an exam tomorrow and I am feeling fine about it...fine as in Freaked out Insecure Neurotic and Emotional! Nothing more nothing less. I do this eveytime...wish so hard that I could just jump in time, to AFTER the exam.

I am SO bad with the waiting, I get all these horror senarios in my head instead of focusing on the presentation I have to prepare and what I will say. I know I will do what I always do...make it up as I go along. Exams for me are always an out-of-body experience..I almost never know what I am saying in there..but I somehow always manages to pull through somehow! But I get myself in a right state before and I get ever so nervouse. I just want it to be over with..NOW!

But instead of being smart about it and doing all the work in due time, I always leave it to the last minute, as I then minimise the amount off stress I end up putting on myself, to only a day or so instead of more! This may very well only make sense to me, but so be it.

Right now for instance, I should be working on the PowerPoint presentation, but am instead writing this blog and watching What Not to Wear with Trinny & Susannah. Perhaps I should get a hold of them for next time and make them yell at me, to not put things off?! I know they deal mostly with making your bumb look smaller, but I think maybe I would listen to them no matter what they said! Or maybe I have now just lost the plot and am now rambeling on...anything to NOT get back to what I really should be doing.

And I know that I will keep watching the telly and will most likely be finished very late tonight.

Will I ever learn, should I, can I? I mean maybe this is just who I am, and there are bigger issues than this about me, that I should work on.

And perhaps there are much more important issues in the world to be dealt with, than my wierd way of dealing with an oral exam. I shall try and be less wraped up in my own tiny problems...I mean if this is the worst I can come up with, I should say that my life is really very good.

It is just right now...this is all that will fit in my head....sad but true!

I think perhaps I will go back to working on the presentation now...or if I´m to be honest, I will most definitely end up watching The Daily Show instead...but I mean 25min in the company of Jon Stewart, THAT is worth putting off any studying for :)


~Flisbeth - still feeling fine (see top for explanation!)